I don’t know if anyone has checked this out and wondered why I haven’t posted in a couple of days. Well, I guess I will tell you (aka: imaginary readers). So, I started trying polyphasic sleeping straight off of a breakup. It was a clean breakup. I didn’t hate her, and she didn’t hate me. In fact, we were still friends. So, I was in a fairly good mood, as our relationship practically made us hate each other. I did not realize at this time that my ability to do anything is greatly dependent upon my happiness. I always thought that I just pushed through and didn’t care. Well….. As it is obvious to you by now, it greatly impacts everything in my lie.
So, after the breakup, we were friends. In other words, all was good. Then, well.. it turned to crap. The day of my first oversleep, I had a fight with her. Blah blah blah. I guess I am now officially a whiny brat with this post. So, from then on we weren’t on great terms, and I was slightly depressed. That is why I was able to keep it up for most of the day, because I wasn’t completely depressed.
First, I am going to tell you something. I am back on bear mode for the time being. Now, I will tell you why. First off, my grandfather has been put on hospice care, and is only expected to live for 90 days. In all actuality, by the time someone reads this, he will be dead. Secondly, my ex, the one who I dated for 2 1/2 years did something incredibly whorish within two weeks of us breaking up. She makes a completely awkward sexual tension between us after the break up, and goes and does this… But I digress. This is still fresh on my mind, and I am frankly furious about it. So, the combination of these two events has put me into a state of severe depression and aggression.
This combination has made it impossible for me to continue with polyphasic sleeping for now. I oversleep, become naturally tired and groggy because of that. Then, I get angered easily because I am tired. Which, just mixes with my aggression I am already harboring, causing me to be impossible to be around. I realize this, however I cannot do anything to change it besides actually getting sleep.
I am sorry for now. I got in over my head. If I had some consul, this wouldn’t be bad. However, I have no outlet for any of my hatred/rage/depression right now. So, for now, I am going to stick to bear mode. I’m going to try to visit my grandparents at every opportunity. I’m going to try to get over her and all the bullshit she puts me through. Then, I am going to get back on this.
Do not worry about this going dormant, as my problems have a way of hitting all at once, and ending in a timely manner. I only expect this to be down for a week or two at the max. Sorry, once again. I will be back on this. Not that it matters if I am gone for a week or two more. Haha. 
Thanks for reading
-Robby
p.s. I finally figured out how to make it not double space. I feel pretty awesome about that.
